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Look at the picture, hmm guess what guy I feel like today, yes the guy with the ball. I am officially becoming a cyncial person, and I am actually sick about it.
Those who know me, or at least met me personally know that I am upbeat, bright, funny, full of energy and I am not tooting my own horn, I am really like that. I am an eternal optimist, well not today.
I am gloomy, distrustful, angry and well plain old tired of being a good girl. I am tired of being taken advantage of by people who I actually care about, throwed away when not needed anymore and left to die in the woods. ugh frustration, aggravation, and all the other " tions" I can think of. I am stamping my foot for dramatic effect right now. I know my problem I can't say no. I have to learn how to say no. It sounds simple enough, but it can be hard to say no. Saying no is often perceived as a sign of weakness, but I am strong, a signal that says that you can't handle it all. That's okay ? no not for me. We should not be expected to be superheroes, despite what others around us might say. I know what my other problem is I want to be that superhero, I want to be that person that can help everyone. I try to do good, but it turns bad. I unconditionally give, why is it so damn hard. It is getting to the point with the many complex relationships around me I am not being true to myself, I am sacrificing myself for what ? To be a
disposable friend, partner, person, acquaintance. I know this is a temporary feeling, one that I will bury again until someone else pisses me off. I will be my happy go lucky person by I say tomorrow morning, I will do my yoga breathing, I will read my Secret book, I will cleanse my mind I will be good as new.
So if you need a favor ask me tomorrow.
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